Size: 5
Age: Teens
Highest Weight: 145lbs
Lowest Weight: 105.5lbs
Goal Weight: 90lbs (Then maybe lower later)
Favorite Diet Food?
Pickles, diet coke, veggies, fruit...
Favorite Binge Food?
Chocolate and Pizza.
Favorite Exercise?
Running and sports
Thinspo?
Lace, scene, gothic, emo, tattoo, all kinds really...
What Makes You Slip Up?
If I'm in a restaurant and everyone is ordering food, my family because they force me to eat...
What Makes You Strong?
Being alone at my house, or at a friends, away from my family.
When Did It Start?
DECEMBER 6, 2010
Does Anyone Know?My boyfriend and my brother
Do You Want Help?
No, I am not broken, nor am I insane, so why would I need help?
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
800....too many
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?
a fatass
Are You In A Relationship?
Yes.
Is It For Attention?
No, if it were for attention, I think I wouldn't be hiding this...:/
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?
In the middle. I hang out with people of both weights.
Are You Depressed?
Yes, I always have been.
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
No, but i've thought about it several times.
Ever Been To A Psychologist?
No, I am not crazy.
Are You On Any Medication?
None.
I AM -
[X ] anorexic
[X] ednos
[X ] bulimic
[X ] living off diet pills
[X] hungry
[] thirsty
[] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100lbs
[X] starving myself
[ ] participating in a fast
[ ] vegan
PEOPLE -
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[X] call me fat
[ ] say I’m skinny
[X] say I’m ugly
[ ] say I’m pretty
[X] spread rumors about me
[X] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[X] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
[ ] have tried to stop me
I WISH -
[X] I was thin
[X] I had a better body
[X ] I didn't have to eat
[X] I could control myself
[X] I was under 110lbs
[X ] I could avoid food
[ ] I could hide what I am
[X] I wasn’t fat
[X] I was prettier
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
[] I had a boy/girlfriend
[X] I could disappear
I LOVE -
[ ] feeling hungry
[X] seeing a difference
[] shaking
[] being weak (but strong at the same time)
[X] losing weight
[X] being anorexic/bulimic
[X] green tea
[X] diet pills
[X] being able to turn down food
[X] feeling good about myself
I HATE -
[] when people stare
[ ] being asked questions
[X] having to eat
[ ] being single
[X] wearing short skirts
[X] being fat
[X] looking ugly
[X] feeling this way
[X] fat people
I NEED -
[X] more support
[X] people to stay out of my business
[ ] more friends
[X] someone to know
[X] less food
[X] more water
[X] a gym membership
[X] to lose 50 lbs
[] to lose 30 lbs
[ ] to lose 10lbs
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*The Basics*
Name: Jane Doe
Sex: Debatable
Birthday: October
Age: Any guesses?
Location: Your mind
Hair Color: Light brown, with natural blond and copper highlights
Eye Color: Hazel
*My Eating Disorder*
What Eating Disorders Do You Have: ENDOS, Ana, Mia
How Long Have You Had Them: Since the start of this blog December 2010
Why Do You Have An Eating Disorder: There is no psychological reason...I want to be thin
Are You Proud or Ashamed of Your Eating Disorder: Indifferent at the moment.
Do People Know About Your Eating Disorder: My boyfriend, brother and anyone online.
Do You Wish People Knew About it: No.
Do You Wish You Never Had An Eating Disorder: No. But I don't like knowing the side effects.
Do You Think The Media is Partially Responsible For Your Eating Disorder: 100% negative.
*My Body*
Weight Before Eating Disorder: 130lbs
Height: 5 foot
Current Weight: 119.5lbs
Highest Weight: 145lbs
Lowest Weight: 105.5lbs
Are You Tired A Lot: Yes, because of my insomnia
Have You Ever Fainted: No
Are You Cold All The Time: I'm always cold all the time, I've always been like that.
Do Your Ribs Show: Only if I suck in my stomach...:(
Do Your Hipbones Show: Yep, they always have.
Does Your Collar Bone Show: no.
Can You See Your Ribs Through Your Back: No.
Do Your Thighs Touch: Sadly, yes.
Chest Size: 34
Does Your Head Look Too Big For Your Body: I don't think so.
Are You Satisfied With The Way You Look Now: At this moment, NO
If You Could, What Would You Change About Yourself: My hair (longer please!), my fat.
What Is Your B.M.I.: 23.3
What Do The Doctors Say is Your Ideal Weight: Never asked a doctor.
What Do You Think Is Your Ideal Weight: My goal weight is 90lbs a the moment, but I could go much lower.
*My Thinspirations*
Who Are Your Thinspirations: Anyone really.
Who is Your Favorite Thinspiration: Kate Moss
Who is Your Second Favorite Thinspiration: My friends
Why Do You Envy Them: They are thin, obviously.
What's The Best Thing About Them: Their legs, all so thin and long.
What's The Worst Thing About Them: They make me feel horrible about my weight.
Would You Trade Places With Them If You Could: No.
*My Mind*
Do You Consider Your Eating Disorder a 'Disorder': No.
Are You Pro-Ana/Pro-Mia: If you already have en ED and support others then yes, but not encouraging others to start.
Would You Ever Want Your Best Friend To Have An Eating Disorder: Sometimes, but I feel like they would be bitchy about it.
What Are Your Disordered Eating Habits: Calorie restriction and fasting
Are You Obsessive Compulsive: A little, but not clinically proven.
Are You A Perfectionist: Sometimes.
Do You Have Depression: Yes.
Are You A Cutter: Yes.
Have You Ever Been Suicidal: Yes.
Have You Ever Attempted Suicide: No, but I've thought about it.
Have You Ever Been Hospitalized For Mental Reasons: No.
Have You Ever Been Hospitalized For Your Eating Disorder: No.
Do You Have Body Dismorphic Disorder: No.
*Your Life Outside Your Disorder*
Favorite Color: Red. Black. White.
Favorite Movie: Hunger Point, Sharing the secret, anything with EDs really...
Favorite Book: Winter Girls, Speak, Cut, Thinandbeautiful.com, the perfect cut.
Favorite T.V. Show: Supersize Vs. Super Skinny, Intervention, Family guy, American Dad, The Cleveland Show, any anime...Smallville, Being human.
Favourite Season: Fall, Winter (if it snows)
Favorite Day of The Week: Saturday
Favorite Time Of Day: 12am-6am.
Favourite Holiday: Any holiday..
Favorite Hobby: Reading.
Favorite Actors: Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Macaulay Culkin.
Favourite Actresses: Angelina JoLie, Ellen Page.
Favorite Musician: Don't have one.
Do You Have Any Pets: One dog.
What Do You Like To Do In Your Spare Time: Read, write, sketch, go on the internet, blog and i guess sleep?
*The Future*
What Do You Want To Study In College: I don't know.
What Career Do You Want: Counsellor.
Do You Ever Want To Get Married: Maybe.
Do You Ever Want Kids: Yes, one.
Where Do You Want To Live: I could care less.
Will You Have Any Pets: Always.
What Type of House Do You Want: A small house or apartment.
What Goals Do You Have That Are Unrelated To Your Eating Disorder: To be able to support myself.
What's Your Number One Priority: I don't know.
How Do You Think You Will Die: Suicide or Tragic accident
When Do You Think You WIll Die: I'm not sure.
Will You Be Missed By Anyone: I don't want to wish that pain on anyone.
Will You Have Any Regrets: Probably not.
Will You Have Any Unfinished Business: Not that I'm aware of.
Will Your Eating Disorder Still Affect You: Yes.
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